Diary: August 20, 2024

The weekend was full with joy and love. I felt like we ruled the world. We stayed in bed till morning was over, he made me see heaven. His touches were gentle at first but he also knew I needed more. Depression faded away like it was nothing, I felt like I discovered my body again. At least I felt my body again. The empty shell that it was disappeared and instead of the numbness there it was; excitement, self love, joy and relieve.

Menstruation hit and with the blood leaving my body I feel an almost instant relieve. Like all the darkness leaves my clouded mind at once. I experienced this many times, but since I definitely know the darkness comes with my luteal fase I am more conscious about those feelings. I am more aware of my emotions and moods in relation to my hormonal fluctuations. 

Happy days to come.